Frustration with the job / PhD search


It is not often I speak about this with people, but, I feel I will give this a go anyway to see what comes out of it.


I am a recently turned 35 year old BSc (no honours) and MSc graduate (gained in 2012).  I am applying for jobs and PhDs in neurochemistry as well.  My specialist field is in endocannabinoids and / or malaria.  (Using endocannabinoids in the treatment for malaria is up my street.)  I have been unemployed in the guts of 4 years now and I am finding I am getting more rejection letters than interviews and have had some bouts of depression.

Discrimination for having Dyspraxia and long term unemployment, in one go.

Reading the following blogs:

The Unemployment Bias: The Long-term Unemployed Face Severe Discrimination


Why long-term unemployment matters

It seems that if you have been in the unemployment job market for over 6 months, employers don’t want to look at you.

On top of that I have this:

Don’t bother applying for a job without a 2:1

I was doing my degree and had to resit a module, which I had some difficulty with, which was related to my dyspraxia and my university had shut down my degree before completing my honours degree.

So I ended up with a BSc Applied Chemistry.

Fast forward to 2011, which included a PG Cert Chemical Sciences in the middle of it.  And I finished off my MSc in Sciences (I did social science and molecules in medicine), and I thought it would compensate for the not having an honours.  As it was shut down.

But no, I still needed the honours degree for a job, although I got rejected from a PhD for having no lab experience, which was in my PG Cert as I did my endocannabinoid project.


Not only have I had that to deal with, I have had the incredible ignorance and discrimination which still exists with dyspraxia.

Link on what dyspraxia is

I have seen numerous forums and pages with fellow dyspraxics saying the same thing, they are not getting enough recognition for what dyspraxia is, everyone pretty knows what dyslexia is, once I had an exam paper with “dyslexic student” stamped on it.  I kid you not.

Dyspraxia effects quite a lot of your everyday life, you can’t do things people take for granted like driving  a car – I myself can’t drive, problems with directions like left and right, push and pull – I have had some comments from people standing behind me when I get it the wrong way, just being able to “read” people as well as neurotypical people.  That comes under non verbal communication, for more information, click me.  I still often count on my fingers!!

If you read the link about what dyspraxia is and how it effects us, it is little wonder why we can struggle to function in today’s society.  Which seems to become much more competitive by the day.  I was diagnosed as an adult when I was 22, I had people say they thought there was something wrong with me before and I had some bullying when I was a kid, interestingly those people when I told them that I had a diagnosis for this, they were like, “oh sorry!”.

I am going to cut this short before I go on and on.  Saves me talking – I get tongue tied and just can’t get the words out.  Dyspraxics like myself deserve to be acknowledged for having what we have and it is true what people say about if it is a seen disability like being in a wheelchair or crutches, or hearing aids – you guys get help and recognition.  Heck, even people with dyslexia get more recognition than we do, I must sound like a broken record the amount of times I have mentioned what it is.

There has been days where I have said to myself that I wish I was never born with this!  (I was born with this curse and I will die with it!),  gifted to some people, seemingly like a leaper to employers or even worse!

I just want to be in a research environment!  Slower and something I am content with!  So if any researchers wanting a dedicated scientist and willing to give me a change, give me an Email in the comments and I can see it and get some privacy.

Better say cheerio!


P.S.  Currently at the moment, I am looking to get credit transfer  with the OU to gain my honours.  I have not had an honours year for funding, so any Scottish universities, (bar one – who they know they are!) willing to have me as an honours year student or to give me an internship in the lab – please give me a buzz in the comments.

Fibromyalgia Awareness day…

Originally posted on Ramblings of a Fibro Fogged Mind:

Morning Folks,

Well, its Fibro day again where did that year go? Answers on a post card please :)

I wanted to have something profound and engaging to say today but to be honest I just don’t have the spoons…

I had two craft fairs to do over the weekend exhausting but fun…

And I’m also setting up a WordPress site for a new piece of action I’m involved in called #women2gether, This is a possible legal challenge to the ICC to investigate the UK government and other countries governments for the targeting women as well as others with Austerity Legislation. This is a group of women that are bringing this challenge so it’s primarily about women and how austerity measures and legislation is targeting women and causing both extreme hardship and death…

So that’s exciting and scary and a great deal of work. :) spoon heavy work lol…

The other…

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Ryanair does deliver an experience!


This is funny! I have flown Ryanair!

Originally posted on James Lockley:

As sent to Ryanair:

Dear Sir/Madam,

 I am writing for the attention of your customer experience team. I am definitely a customer, and believe me, you didn’t fail in providing us with an experience.

 My wife and I had booked to fly from Stansted on the Thursday 17th April, evening flight to Bratislava. After 2 hours of fun, fun, fun, stuck on the M25 doing 20 mph, we arrived at Stansted check in with just one hour until the flight. Knowing the strict Ryan Air policy on ‘luggage check in closes 40 mins before the flight’ as you are the Low Fare Taxi of The Skies, we went straight to the Ryan Air assistant and explained our plight. She said we were still within the time and all would be fine but we had to make the attendant at check in aware and he would assist from there.

 We approached…

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DWP Block Report To Cover Up Work Programme Shambles


Why am I not surprised!!

Originally posted on the void:

IDS-slug The DWP are refusing to release an evaluation of the floundering £6 billion pound Work Programme despite the report having recently featured on Channel 4 news.

The evaluation is believed to be critical of the Work Programme and in particular benefit sanctions, warning that they found: “no conclusive evidence that sanctions were changing job search behaviour or increasing job entry rates.”

A Freedom of Information request asking to see the report has today been refused by the DWP on the grounds that they plan to publish it at an unspecified later date (PDF).  The evaluation was scheduled to be released in the Summer of last year.

This is not the first time the DWP have treated Freedom of Information (FOI) rules with contempt in a shoddy effort to conceal what’s really going on, and wrong, with the department.  A ruling by the Information Commissioner;s Office (ICO) ordering the release…

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Universal Jobmatch – the Fightback!

Originally posted on Ipswich Unemployed Action.:

Whilst Part 2 of Universal Jobmatch fake job scams (in response to Channel 4’s fake jobs investigation) is being careful researched, Ipswich Unemployed Action shall reveal how to take action against the scammers!

In this article we will show you how to kick the scammers where it hurts! Remember, DWP would want to sweep this under the carpet… it’s not in their best interest to lose up to 95% of the jobs. If you want to safeguard your benefits and your personal information the best way is to get the fraudsters to retreat as Jobcentre Plus won’t do anything about it.

You can pick and choose how you fight back – but most importantly don’t fight back alone. Spread the word.

Kill their income

The primary reason why most of these scams operate is to receive income directly from jobseekers like you (rather than indirectly by selling your…

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Loki will be Loved.

Originally posted on Sacred Iceland:

Loki will be Loved..

My friend Tanisha’s article about Loki :)

I resonated with her description of Loki as a god who cares for people who have been abused. I would extend that to encompass people who have been placed out the outskirts of society for any reason.

I see a lot of people who have suffered hardships at the hands of others be picked up by Loki: People who have suffered abuse and been left on the outside of “normalcy”, people who suffer from mental or chronic illness that mark them as “other”; Gay and transexual people who go against the grain of what our gendered society expects from them; People who have suffered racial segregation and discrimination. Loki takes them in, seeing beauty in all of them. But he doesn’t coddle you and tell you he’ll make everything ok. Because he loves the being you are so much…

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