Frustration with the job / PhD search

Aloha!

It is not often I speak about this with people, but, I feel I will give this a go anyway to see what comes out of it.

Introduction

I am a recently turned 35 year old BSc (no honours) and MSc graduate (gained in 2012).  I am applying for jobs and PhDs in neurochemistry as well.  My specialist field is in endocannabinoids and / or malaria.  (Using endocannabinoids in the treatment for malaria is up my street.)  I have been unemployed in the guts of 4 years now and I am finding I am getting more rejection letters than interviews and have had some bouts of depression.

Discrimination for having Dyspraxia and long term unemployment, in one go.

Reading the following blogs:

The Unemployment Bias: The Long-term Unemployed Face Severe Discrimination

and

Why long-term unemployment matters

It seems that if you have been in the unemployment job market for over 6 months, employers don’t want to look at you.

On top of that I have this:

Don’t bother applying for a job without a 2:1

I was doing my degree and had to resit a module, which I had some difficulty with, which was related to my dyspraxia and my university had shut down my degree before completing my honours degree.

So I ended up with a BSc Applied Chemistry.

Fast forward to 2011, which included a PG Cert Chemical Sciences in the middle of it.  And I finished off my MSc in Sciences (I did social science and molecules in medicine), and I thought it would compensate for the not having an honours.  As it was shut down.

But no, I still needed the honours degree for a job, although I got rejected from a PhD for having no lab experience, which was in my PG Cert as I did my endocannabinoid project.

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Not only have I had that to deal with, I have had the incredible ignorance and discrimination which still exists with dyspraxia.

Link on what dyspraxia is

I have seen numerous forums and pages with fellow dyspraxics saying the same thing, they are not getting enough recognition for what dyspraxia is, everyone pretty knows what dyslexia is, once I had an exam paper with “dyslexic student” stamped on it.  I kid you not.

Dyspraxia effects quite a lot of your everyday life, you can’t do things people take for granted like driving  a car – I myself can’t drive, problems with directions like left and right, push and pull – I have had some comments from people standing behind me when I get it the wrong way, just being able to “read” people as well as neurotypical people.  That comes under non verbal communication, for more information, click me.  I still often count on my fingers!!

If you read the link about what dyspraxia is and how it effects us, it is little wonder why we can struggle to function in today’s society.  Which seems to become much more competitive by the day.  I was diagnosed as an adult when I was 22, I had people say they thought there was something wrong with me before and I had some bullying when I was a kid, interestingly those people when I told them that I had a diagnosis for this, they were like, “oh sorry!”.

I am going to cut this short before I go on and on.  Saves me talking – I get tongue tied and just can’t get the words out.  Dyspraxics like myself deserve to be acknowledged for having what we have and it is true what people say about if it is a seen disability like being in a wheelchair or crutches, or hearing aids – you guys get help and recognition.  Heck, even people with dyslexia get more recognition than we do, I must sound like a broken record the amount of times I have mentioned what it is.

There has been days where I have said to myself that I wish I was never born with this!  (I was born with this curse and I will die with it!),  gifted to some people, seemingly like a leaper to employers or even worse!

I just want to be in a research environment!  Slower and something I am content with!  So if any researchers wanting a dedicated scientist and willing to give me a change, give me an Email in the comments and I can see it and get some privacy.

Better say cheerio!

Janine

P.S.  Currently at the moment, I am looking to get credit transfer  with the OU to gain my honours.  I have not had an honours year for funding, so any Scottish universities, (bar one – who they know they are!) willing to have me as an honours year student or to give me an internship in the lab – please give me a buzz in the comments.

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